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April 4th, 2009
07:44 am
Tonight, I will see one of the most talented, soulful, inspiring artists of our time.
India.Arie. Paramount. 8pm tonight. Front Row Tickets! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
I love this woman.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/smile.gif) excited
Current Music: India.Arie - "Chocolate High"
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March 15th, 2009
03:46 pm - Four Days
In four days, I will be on my way to the beautiful, tropical wonderland called Puerto Vallarta.
I've been working on getting a base tan. Bought fabulous flip-flops, sunglasses, shorts & short-cut swim trunks. Ridiculously cute hair cut at Allure Salon. And last but not least, after intense "men's brazilian", full leg, chest & eyebrow waxing, I think I am officially beach-ready.
Margaritas, the beach, the sun. The forecast says it should be mostly sunny, with a high of 85 degrees F. If anyone needs a vacation, its me (sorry love).
Did I say I am excited?
Life is fabulous.
Current Mood: excited
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February 24th, 2009
11:17 pm - Ready for Spring
India.Arie finally released her much anticipated fourth album, Testimony, Vol. 2: Love & Politics.
To my delight (but not to my surprise) it is a breath of fresh air.
India.Arie does not disappoint. Her last album was all about healing a broken heart. Now here is she is, fully healed and recovered. Her new album is incredible. After almost three years of silence, she's back with her best album so far. Thank you India.Arie, this is just the album I need. It's full of inspiration and hope.
Life is a journey, not a destination
There are no mistakes, just chances we've taken
Lay down your regrets, cause all we have is now
Wake up in the morning and get out of bed
Start making a mental list in my head
Of all of the things that I am grateful far
Early in the morning, start of a new day
New hopes, new dreams, new ways
Open my eyes and open my mind and
I wonder how life will surprise me today
Here she is talking about her new album (I get goosebumps listening to her speak):
She's coming to the Paramount on April 4th. And I have the best seats in the house. Front row. I will cry and rejoice. But most importantly, I will listen and learn.
Current Music: India.Arie - "A Beautiful Day"
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December 27th, 2008
12:54 pm - As 2008 comes to a close...
As 2008 comes to a close (finally), I have to ask myself: am I wiser? How has 2008 changed me, and have I changed for the better? My job, my relationship status (or lack thereof) and my home have all changed from the beginning of 2008 to the end. I feel like I've lost a sense of self during the shuffle that was this year.
And what a horrible, horrendous year it was. The sad part is that I actually don't feel any wiser or better because of it. What have I learned? Because of all the heartbreak, disappointment and failures my relationships have suffered. The relationship I have with myself has suffered. I feel jaded, bitter, hurt, scared, angry, confused, distant, lost, hopeless, ashamed, and alone. Oh, and did I mentioned depressed?
Sometimes I surprise myself with optimism. It comes and goes of course, but the truth of the matter is that at the end of this very poignant year (for myself and for my country) - each of us has to ask ourselves....am I happy?
The scary truth is that no, I'm not happy. 2008 has been an extremely difficult year for many people, myself included. I wish I could bounce back to my old ignorance. The pain I experienced this year... I can't even put into words. It wasn't black and white. There was no right answer. There are no words.
I wanted to reach out to people. To my friends, my family. But I couldn't quite describe or put into words what I needed. I thought I knew; I guess I still don't. And even after all the misfortune that happened this last spring and summer, come fall and winter I started making foolish mistakes. I thought I knew better. Yet I became self-destructive. My own enemy.
Some things about me have remained unchanged. I still have a shoebox that holds every letter and card I've received since I was ten. I still cherish my Westport postcards. The five wedding garters also have their place in a shoebox. There are still some traces and evidence of my old self. Tucked and safely hidden from view.
I really don't want to celebrate New Year's. No goals or resolutions this year. I do, however, want to celebrate the fact that I have survived. I'm still breathing. Even when I felt like I couldn't get out of bed, that my heart was so heavy that I could barely move....somehow eventually I did. That's probably my best accomplishment this year.
My wish for 2009 is that I start being the very best person I can be. I want to put my best foot forward. Isn't that the only thing that we can do? Despite all pitfalls, the only thing any of us can try and do is simply be our very best selves. Keep trying. Do your best. It sounds so elementary and juvenile, but I think I wasn't listening enough in school to really understand it. Do your very best. Be the best person you can be. Its profound and beautiful. That's my hope for next year. Even if I fall and make mistakes next year, I really and truly want to try and do my very best next year.
My love to all of you. Thank you for supporting me and being there for me this year. I wish the best for you, and for the ones you love.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
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December 11th, 2008
10:15 pm - To Bettie
April 22, 1923 - December 11, 2008
Rest in Peace Bettie Page - you were a legend.
Current Mood: mournful
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October 19th, 2008
10:03 am - SNL is Pure Gold
Golden. Amy Poehler is amazing! And it makes me like Sarah Palin just a little bit more.
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October 12th, 2008
10:05 pm - Rest in Peace
Ten years ago today Matthew Shepard died. He was 21 years old.
I will never, ever forget.
December 1, 1976 - October 12, 1998
Rest in peace Matthew. You are in our thoughts and hearts. We will never forget.
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September 14th, 2008
01:42 pm - I miss Hillary
HILARIOUS!!! Tina Fey & Amy Poehler are perfect as Sarah Palin & Hillary Clinton. Love it, love it, love it.
If you missed it last night - here you go.
As a Senator Hillary Clinton supporter (a-still-in-training Obama supporter) this video speaks for me.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/wink.gif) giggly
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August 27th, 2008
07:55 am - Clinton Rocked the House
Senator Clinton fucking ROCKED THE CONVENTION last night. Her speech was amazing. One of the best political speeches I have ever heard.
She was so tough, so resilient. She had strength and wit. There were times in my heart that I was so moved, I had a back thought - why isn't she the nominee? I was still upset and bitter.
But she made me question my own feelings as a very, very strong Hillary Clinton supporter. Was I in just for her? No. I am true Democrat, and I will support Barack Obama. "No way, no how, no McCain." Hillary made it clear to her supporters (such as myself) what we need to do.
Even the biggest Obama supporter has to admit, she rocked it. Her speech was fantastic.
Amazing. She is absolutely amazing.
I love Senator Clinton.
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July 26th, 2008
11:28 am - Someday
Let's travel back in time to 1990 - to Mariah Carey's third single "Someday" from her debut album. She was only twenty years old. She looks like a baby! And she had the really big, big curly hair. I love it.
She co-wrote this song with Ben Margulies, who also co-wrote with her five other songs on her first album. "Someday" was also one of the five songs on the famous demo tape that was given to record mogul Tommy Mottola at a party - who tracked her down and signed her on to Columbia Records. The rest is history. It was the most successful debut albums Columbia Records has ever released with four number one singles.
This song is such a great depiction of how I am feeling now.
*Note: If you skip ahead to 3:59, you can see a very brief clip of Mariah Carey doing the Running Man! Haha! Oh Mariah, I love you then and I still love you now.
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July 19th, 2008
01:44 pm - India.Arie is a Goddess
I finally found a video clip of India.Arie performing "The Heart of the Matter". It's taken from the North Sea Jazz Festival in the Netherlands.
She is amazing, amazing, amazing. Her voice is pure. I am heartbroken, humbled, and moved. This is exactly how I feel.
I've been trying to get to the heart of my own matter for quite some time. I haven't found it yet, but the song certainly helps me heal.
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July 14th, 2008
08:27 am - Mariah's new single!
Mariah's new single is out! "I'll Be Lovin' U Long Time". I know most of you are going to hate it - but I absolutely adore it.
It's perfect for summer. I always want to bounce and shake my booty when I hear it. I wanna love someone long time too.....but alas, I'll just love Mariah long time for now.
I've heard people say that in the music video Mariah is just "a cat in heat" and "a horny ho" but y'all just haters.
Oh, and I love the rapper in it to. T.I. I think?
Check it out!
Current Mood: excited
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July 11th, 2008
08:27 am - Madonna vs. Mariah
Madonna is just a pathetic attention whore. It's getting on my nerves. Always has been, always will be.
She'll say anything bitchy for press.
Blast from the past, shall we? Circa 1995. Madonna vs. Mariah.
You know I got your back Mariah. Love ya girl.
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July 7th, 2008
01:03 pm - My Wanna-Be-Inner-Carrie-Bradshaw-Monologue
In a small city like Seattle, unfortunately when it comes to relationships and dating (or as close as you get to dating) you have to make sure to cross your t's and dot your i's. And if you are unable to do so, well then. . . you throw yourself in front of a bus. Or the monorail, if you feel like being local and unique.
In a city that is famous for being light, casual and green. . .why is it that so many encounters end up in red?
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June 23rd, 2008
10:24 pm - the heart of my matter
The song says it so much better than I ever could. Every line, every word. It breaks my heart.
I got the call today I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talking on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?
I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been trying to get down to the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
Are the very things we kill a lot, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the war they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm
I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been trying to get down to the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Caught to put it all behind you, cause life goes on
You keep carrying that anger, it'll eat you up inside
I wanna be happily ever after
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
I've been trying to get down to the heart of the matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinking about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore
The song has such a different meaning to me now than when I first heard it. It's not necessarily about forgiving someone else, it's about forgiving yourself, even if they are moving on.
I have truly been trying to get down to the heart of the my matter. I don't know the answer. I still don't understand why this happened to us. I don't know what else to say.
The songs says it all.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sad.gif) crushed
Current Music: India.Arie - "The Heart of the Matter"
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December 16th, 2007
11:07 pm
Nope. Can't sleep. Still want to punch someone.
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October 18th, 2006
09:23 am
I am in love with India.Arie. Her latest album "Testimony: Vol. 1, Life & Relationship" speaks volumes.
"This album took three years to create because I had to do the emotional work to get to the point where I wasn't simply complaining but rather sharing my lessons and experiences in love and heartbreak. As many of you well know, heartbreak isn't an easy subject to tell the truth about because it's too easy for it come out as anger. Beneath that anger is pain and beneath that pain is fear. I want to be a vehicle of truth and the underlying truth of this last two years has been facing my fears about love and relationships and still keeping my heart open to love again. That is the secret of life, to get back up and try again. Without love we are nothing. To all of those, myself included, who have been heart broken by life's experiences may this collection of songs inspire you to heal, keep the faith and open your heart to try again. To all of those who have yet to have your heart cracked open, may this collection of songs show you the beauty in the complexity of the journey of love. I have learned that it ain't like the movies, it's so much better. And most of all I have learned that even in the darkest hour...this too shall pass."
Get the album. Experience the Beauty. Spread the Love.
P.S. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) dalamoon &littleboiblu69 - aren't you proud? :)
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July 30th, 2006
10:02 pm - Derailed
Kyle and I rented Derailed with Clive Owen and Jennifer Aniston. And all I have to say is....wow.
I did not expect all the twists and turns. And the ending? I'm speechless. It's slow at first, but it builds. Talk about scary, thrilling and intense.
Just....wow.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/shock.gif) scared
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July 3rd, 2006
04:05 pm - Portland Pictures Volume 2
More pictures of my Portland weekend getaway, and my time with the famous, spectacular wonder that is Tibby.
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11:37 am - Portland
I love this picture. I'm a hitch-hiking ho.
Josh and I were talking about Disney movies, and I told him my favorite was Lady & the Tramp. He told me he had never seen it. That was blashemy to me, so I made him rent it. "He's a tramp, but they love him. Break's a new heart every day" Oh my gosh, love it.
Josh took me to the Rose Garden, and it was gorgeous. I heart Portland. I wish I could find a good, stable job and move there. The people are so friendly (much more friendly and welcoming than Seattle). I love the culture, the restaurants, the vibe. And it does help that all men in Portland are very, very handsome.
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